Sebastian nodded  in agreement. “I’m just completely right all the time.” He said smugly, laughing slightly. “Hm. You found the right guy? Who is he? Is he hot? He’ll have to go through my test first, of course.” He smiled. “Oh well, let me dream.” He chuckled softly and nudged him gently. “Not a problem.”

Sebastian nodded slowly and gulped. “I.. er,” He took a deep breath. “I don’t really, um, wanna talk about it. I’m sorry.” He sniffed. “But I will tell you. Just.. just not now.”

Sebastian shrugged his shoulders. “What’s the point in it?” He raised an eyebrow. “Thank you. Ah, yes. Most of them really agree with me though, it’s fun. I remember the first time I opened my submission and ask box, everyone like, plagued me with thank you’s and stuff. They’re probably the best people ever.” He hummed softly, biting his lip. “Stop saying sorry, B. It didn’t creep me out, no.” He laughed softly, shaking his head. “Who knows, maybe you’ll even get to cross that off of your bucket list, too.” He smirked, nodding slowly. He frowned a little at the next bit. “Hey, don’t say that. Retard is a horrible word and why would you think that of yourself?” He asked, tilting his head to the side. As Blaine spoke again, Sebastian gulped, watching as he put his head in his hands. Was it because of the ‘I think’? They had only just met, how was he supposed to know how he felt for Blaine? Sure, he felt something, but he wasn’t sure what that something was. “Blaine, don’t.. don’t apologize. Please.” To be honest, when Blaine apologized it just made Sebastian feel like Blaine never meant those words or anything. It completely felt like someone was stabbing him in the chest right there. He kept any trace of emotion inside. When Blaine rushed to his bedroom, Sebastian gulped and shooed Buddy out of his room before shutting the door and sitting on the bed. Don’t cry, don’t fucking cry you worthless piece of shit, he thought to himself, trying to hold in the tears. He grabbed his shirt and put it back on, he then grabbed his hoodie and put that back on too, hugging his knees to his chest, doing his absolute best not to cry. Every fucking time. Everytime he even let his walls come down or even show someone how he actually felt, it just left him hurt. He couldn’t deal with it, he honestly couldn’t. He had spent all of these fucking years holding all of the tears in, all of how fucking miserable he felt. He hugged his knees tighter to his chest, burying his face between his knees as he started to sob quite loudly, his body shaking as he did. He tried to take deep breaths to calm himself, which only made the sobs worse and louder. He moved to lay down, burying his face in a pillow, hoping it would make the sobs quieter than they were.

Sebastian smiled proudly. “Well, I’m hardly ever wrong.” He smirked and hummed softly. “It will be,” He confirmed, sniffing. “You think you have what? Found the right guy or already died alone with me?” He raised an eyebrow. “They are not horrible.” He said softly. “Sh, no. If they were horrible I wouldn’t do this.” He said, leaning forward and placing a soft kiss on both of his eyebrows, grinning. “See, not horrible.”

He blinked at that, thinking for a moment. “Just.. promise you won’t tell? Promise it’ll be a secret?” He gulped, tilting his head to the side a little. If he could trust anyone then it’d be Blaine, right?

Sebastian nodded slowly. “Life’s a fucking bitch like that, I guess.” He said, yawning softly. “You like my Tumblr? I don’t really post shit except rants or random blogging about my life.” He chuckled softly, rubbing his eyes. “Good, because it’s true.” He grinned as Blaine poked his chest. As Blaine fell silent, Sebastian obviously put two and two together and nodded slowly. “It’s nothing to be ashamed of, you know? If you wanna do.. that with someone, then never be ashamed to say it.” He said, smiling softly. “Told you it wouldn’t creep me out.” He grinned. “You should. Tell him that this awesome, famous guy called Sebastian thinks he’s cute, in a non creepy way.” He laughed softly, nudging him back gently. As soon as Blaine kissed him again, Sebastian kissed back, carressing his cheek with his thumb gently. It honestly wasn’t like most of Sebastian’s kisses, this one actually meant something. He wasn’t sure why or how, because they had only just met, but it meant something to him. Something that really did completely scared him to death. When he heard the three words, he didn’t even panic. He knew Blaine was telling the truth, and maybe, just maybe, he loved him too. “I love you too,” He breathed out, a little shocked at himself. “I think.” He gulped. Well, way to ruin it ‘Bas, he thought to himself.

Sebastian shook his head. “There’s no shame in being a virgin. It just means that your first time should be incredibly special.” He smiled softly. “You’ll find the right guy soon, honest. And if not then I’m prepared to die alone with you. It’d be fun.” He said jokingly, nudging him gently. “They are not horrible.” He said, moving his hand to stroke his eyebrows, grinning. “They’re cool.” He mumbled. He grinned as Blaine finally laughed. “Awesome. Thank you.”

“Don’t be, honest.” He said, shrugging. He thought for a moment. “Dunno. Too much bad shit happened, I don’t ever really wanna go back there, it scares the shit out of me.” 

Sebastian laughed softly, nodding in agreement. “Obviously. Bitches are wishing they could be us.” He smiled, humming softly. “BrOTP, for now, at least. But you never know what can happen, right?” He smirked. “Well, you are so you’re welcome. And thank you, I do my best to keep up with all of these fucking sites.” He mumbled, nodding slowly. “Just.. just accept the compliment. Because you’re amazing to me.” He said softly, sniffing. He smiled as he giggled, raising an eyebrow. “They’re not all about fucking me, are they?” He joked, laughing softly. Sebastian grinned as Blaine leaned into his touch. As he overheard something about Blaine loving him, Sebastian remained calm. It was comforting, that someone actually loved him. Especially someone as sweet and as beautiful as Blaine. He didn’t deserve it. He laughed slightly and nodded slowly. “That’s cute. Young Blaine was cute.” He grinned. As Blaine asked if he could kiss him again, Sebastian nodded. “You can kiss me as many times as you want, killer.” He kept his eyes locked on Blaine though. He truly was just mesmerizing. He like it, it was new. 

Sebastian nodded, smiling softly. “You’re not a freak. Some people just like to wait for the right person, there’s nothing bad about that.” He said, nudging him gently. “I get it. I feel uncomfortable when I go to fuck some people too, but then I usually just drink a lot more, it makes it easier, and that way I don’t let anyone down.” He thought for a moment. “I really made myself sound like a slut there.” He shook his head slowly. “I’m not disgusted by you, or freaked out by your eyebrows.” He smiled, looking at him. “I can do trigonometry on them.” He joked, wanting to get Blaine to at least smile again.

“It’s fine, don’t apologize.” He mumbled, forcing a small smile, shaking his head. “Not really. I miss them though, a lot.” He sighed. “It’s cool, though. My own fault, they don’t really approve of the whole singing thing.”

Sebastian grinned at him. “We have a ship name already? Which one are we, a BrOTP or an OTP?” He raised an eyebrow. “Talking of ship names, I checked out your Tumblr on the way here. You’re cute as fuck.” He laughed slightly. “You are completely.. amazing, you know that?” He said, smiling fondly. He hummed softly. “I’m sure I won’t. It takes a lot to creep me out. Spill.” He said softly, raising his eyebrows. Sebastian watched as Blaine blushed, he moved to cup his cheek with his hand gently, just wanting to touch him. “Loved it,” He said with a nod, smiling slightly. After a while, Sebastian pulled away slowly, moving to rest their foreheads together gently, pulling Blaine a little closer, wanting to be closer to him. He blinked and grinned at him. “Well, you can cross that off your bucket list, right?”

Sebastian nodded slowly. “You mean you’ve never had sex? Or that you have but only once?” He asked, tilting his head to the side. “Hey, no, how can anyone be disgusted with you? You’re freakin’ cute.” He laughed slightly. He hummed and nodded. “Just a maybe?” He smirked, raising an eyebrow. “Well, you’re certainly playing hard to get.” He laughed.

“I guess so, it can get annoying though.” He laughed, smiling. He gulped and shrugged. “Because, uh, something happened. Not with my mom, I mean, my mom is the nicest person ever. But, um, someone I dated.. they, uh..” He winced a little as he got flashbacks, blinking. “I am not. But thank you.” He smiled.

Sebastian laughed softly. “Obviously. We’ll be the best.” He mumbled, resting his head against Blaine’s for a moment, taking a deep breath. “I will, thank you.” He laughed softly. He smirked at that. “I am a beautiful tall fucker, yes. I couldn’t have said it better myself.” He laughed. “And why aren’t they able to be revealed?” He asked, tilting his head to the side. “Well, maybe if you play your cards right, killer.” He smirked. He watched Blaine’s reaction, nodding slowly. “You can touch.” He confirmed. He kept his eyes locked on Blaine as he trailed his fingers down his neck and chest, shivering at his touch. He took not of all of his features. Fuck, he really was beautiful. He fought back the urge to kiss him. “I could feel that.” He mumbled, a wide smile forming on his lips. Felling Blaine kiss his neck, Sebastian let out a soft moan, suddenly feeling his pants tighten. Brilliant. “It’s fine, I liked it.” He said softly, his eyes still trained on him. He lifted his chin up gently so Blaine was making eye contact with him. He softly and gently pressed his lips to Blaine’s. He didn’t know why, everything about Blaine was just.. captivating. Sebastian just needed to kiss him.

Sebastian thought for a moment. “Really? Who’s the lucky guy?” He asked, raising his eyebrows, nudging him gently, but feeling a slight hint of jealousy. “I like your way of thinking. Though, I’m sure TV companies wouldn’t go for a reality show where people basically kill each other. But you never know, it could happen.” He laughed softly. A small smile formed on his lips as he heard Blaine moan quietly. “You like that?” He asked softly. “Maybe a little. But I won’t tell anyone.” He laughed slightly.

“She’s like a mom to me after I ran away, she was just there. So, she just worries a lot.” He mumbled, shrugging. “Ah, you really do flatter me. It’s cute. I’m not flawless, honest. I have big major flaws.”

Sebastian nodded in agreement. “Yep. We’ll be like the next Belldom, which is completely real.” He laughed slightly. “Thanks, I think? It means a lot that you don’t think I’m fat or old.” He smiled. He raised an eyebrow as Blaine as the see the freckles on his chest, not really expecting it. He laughed slightly and nodded. “Oh. Right. I think I met her once.” He nodded slowly. “My freckles aren’t anything special, honest. What else is on this bucket list?” He asked, laughing softly. “I remember her. She like, squealed and almost fainted.” He shrugged, raising an eyebrow. As Blaine crawled out, Sebastian smiled fondly. “Whichever you want is cool with me.” He said with a shrug, before rolling his eyes playfully. “Fine, you can see my freckles.” He chuckled. He pulled off his hoodie and threw it on the bed, and then he took off his shirt and threw that on the bed. “Happy?” He asked, smiling, his eyebrows raised.

Sebastian laughed softly. “Someone’s just pissed because he doesn’t get any.” He teased, smirking. He nodded slowly, laughing softly at his squeak, grinning. “Twat island? That’s a good idea for a movie or reality TV programme.” He leaned a little closer to him, sniffing. He absentmindedly ran his hand through Blaine’s hair gently, finding it a little calming.

“Awesome. First, we still have to convince her that you’re not a murderer or anything.” She was really worried about that.” He laughed softly, hiccuping a little. 

Sebastian laughed and nodded. “We have, we have.” He grinned, scratching the back of his neck. “I like this bond. We get on pretty well.” He smiled fondly. Hearing his reaction to the date, he smiled softly, nodding. “Well, I am here to make your dreams come true. So if there’s anything else you want then just say.” He shrugged, grinning. He laughed softly and nodded. “Maybe I don’t mean it in a friendly way,” He smirked, pulling away and crawling out from under the bed and standing up. “Come on, killer.” He said. He honestly didn’t know why he was doing this, but a part of him was pushing him to do this. Because, if they were seen together, people would know Blaine was his. Which was quite stupid, seeing as they weren’t even together. But still, he was Sebastian’s. It just confused him so he decided not to think about that. “What did you wanna eat, Bee?”

Sebastian hummed softly. “Shame. They were cute. Except from the PDA.” He laughed slightly. He shook his head. “Not really. It’s horrible. I’m just.. trying to change, you know?” He raised an eyebrow. He nodded slowly. “I hate twats they’re such..” He paused, trying to think of a word. “Twats.” He laughed slightly, sighing softly.

“If you’re sure you want to then I can arrange it with my manager and stuff. You can even go on tour with me, lucky you, right?” He grinned, bumping their shoulders together gently.

Sebastian nodded, sighing in relief as Blaine had seemed to calm down a little. “Promise, Blaineybear.” He said, smiling softly. “Don’t apologize. It’s all fine.” He mumbled, humming softly. He laughed softly as Blaine started nuzzling his chest, he smiled at him. “I know, right?” He mumbled, closing his eyes for a moment, thinking. He had to make it up to Blaine, he had allowed him to stay at his for a while and Sebastian, in return, made him cry. That wasn’t a good thing. Opening his eyes after a moment, Sebastian looked at him. “Wanna go on a date?” He asked, tilting his head to the side a little. “I mean, you’ve done so much for me already. I should pay you back, right?” He smiled softly. Okay, maybe he was developing a thing for Blaine. A very big thing. But it would pass, right? It had to. He couldn’t try to love someone and then get hurt again, he just couldn’t.

Sebastian nodded, smiling slightly. “Yeah. I think he had a girlfriend when I met him.” He shrugged, sniffing. “Oh, I’m sorry. That sucks. I’ve never really been cheated on, I’ve mostly been the cheater.” He sighed softly. “Which is partly why love and shit sickens me. Because, you know, none of that shit lasts forever. Sure, you want it to and you try and make it last forever but it never does.” He mumbled, sniffing. “But he sounds like a twat. If I was him and I had you then I would never let you go.” He said with a shrug. Brilliant. 

He shook his head, sighing softly. “No, it’s fine. My fault.” He mumbled. “You don’t have to say that, you know? I get it if you don’t wanna be, I mean, everyone starts fucking treating you different.”

Hearing Blaine sob, Sebastian blinked, standing still, almost frozen. What was he supposed to do? No one had really cried like this before. Especially not when all he had said was that he was going out. He moved to sit on the floor, before crawling under the bed. “It’s like walking into Narnia.” He said jokingly, hoping it would cheer Blaine up just a little. “I won’t go anywhere, killer.” He said softly. What the fuck was the point in those walls anyway? They didn’t fucking work when it came to Blaine. Wrapping an arm around his shoulder gently, pulling him closer. “Don’t cry.” He said softly. He honestly wasn’t good with the emotional thing, he always ended upsetting the person more. “I’m sorry for playing the song. But I mean it when I say it was sweet, it was honestly really sweet. Nobody’s ever done that for me before, thank you.” He said, kissing the top of his head. It was what they did in movies, right? “Stop crying. Please.”

Sebastian nudged Blaine gently, sighing softly. “I was joking. He’s pretty rude and he can’t really act.” He shrugged. “But me, I’m pretty rude but I can actually act.” He grinned a little, nodding slowly. “Oh, wow. That’s cool. Isn’t that a bit of a stereotype?” He laughed softly, smiling slightly. “I bet your boyfriend likes that, right?” He asked, assuming that he did have one. 

He nodded slowly, feeling a little unwelcome, but he ignored the feeling and shrugged. “Your call.” He mumbled, getting out his phone and looking through old text messages, trying to keep his mind off of certain things.

Sebastian sighed softly and leaned over to turn the CD player off, shrugging. “There. It’s off.” He mumbled, noting the change of his own mood. He really only did this when he was trying to build his walls back up, he had been nice enough, right? And maybe if he was a jerk towards Blaine then maybe he wouldn’t like him as much, maybe he would just leave like everyone else. He nodded slowly as he went to hide under the bed, ignoring the mass amount of feeling unwanted. “Why would anyone want to do either of those? That’s sick.” He frowned a little, unzipping his bag and pulling out a hoodie, quickly pulling it on. He stood up and sighed softly. “I’ll, uh, get out of your way for a while. Are there any good bars and shit?”